Transfer Time!

Prepping for Transfer in my "Lucky" T-shirt!

Last week we transferred one of our beautiful embryos back home! I went into the hospital wearing my lucky t-shirt sent from an IVF warrior I met through Instagram. Her first and only transfer was successful, so I'm hopeful that the t-shirt is lucky for me too! 

Dressed and Ready for Transfer!

Since the procedure takes place in the surgery area of the hospital I still had to dress in a hospital gown and hair net. The procedure requires a full bladder in order to see the uterus properly via ultrasound, so that was the most uncomfortable part. The embryologist mentioned that the embryo did great through the thaw and was starting to hatch. The doctor mentioned that I have a "beautiful uterus," that my lining looked great, and the placement of the embryo looked wonderful. 

Our Lovely Little Embryo!

Despite all the great news during the transfer, there is still no guarantee that it will implant and continue to develop. As of now everything is completely out of my control. There is no magic diet, exercise, or enough positive thinking that will guarantee the success of this little embryo. All I can do it wait, try to decrease stress, and continue my estrogen patches and daily progesterone shots. In approximately two weeks I will have an HCG "Beta" blood test to determine if the embryo implanted. No matter the result, I will be waiting to share the news for a few more weeks. Either way, Brandon and I need time to process and share with close family first. IF beta is positive, we also need to wait a few more weeks for our first ultrasound to confirm heartbeat. And then, there are so many more milestones to reach from there. While I appreciate the prayers and positive thoughts, I also appreciate the privacy of the upcoming results. I do know that this two week wait will be my most difficult yet. KNOWING there is a beautiful little fertilized and developing embryo inside, but not knowing the outcome at this time is SOOO difficult. Nothing about this journey is easy. 

After the procedure was done, I started crying. Just the release of so much waiting, preparation, and want. Finally getting to this day has been so difficult. It was also a bit sad for me, as I was thinking prior to entering the operation room that this is NOT the way I would have chosen to get pregnant. It is so unnatural, and weird, and lonely (Brandon was not allowed in the room with me). While I am so very thankful to have this opportunity, it is definitely not "normal."

Brandon and I Celebrating our Little Embryo!

Despite the sadness and difficulty of this process, I am trying to enjoy these two weeks. Two weeks of being reunited with my little embryo. Two weeks of being "Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise!" Two weeks of promise and hope. Thank you all for following along and climbing this crazy mountain of infertility with me. 

💗Em